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I got my anwer alright. We have beat ourselves to what was possible and deliberately blinded ourselves of rthe impossible.

this is by far the biggest frustration for me this year.. with a capital F for fucking failure!!

i am still clueless as to how i'D push to make it next year, damn the few digits that got me knocked off the painstaking journey to meet 2008 quota. As if the 1.4M losses was not enough tragedy, coping after each decline was like waiting for a broken finger to heal.

i'd expect more of that next year, the single certain wish i'd have for next year is to harbor enough courage to confront individuals to support the team instead of kicking us further deeper underground when we encounter similar losses regardless how much it cost. In a perfect world one's happiness/success should be infectious rather than elicit adverse reactions turning hope and damage control efforts as futile as this year.

i'm starting to love what i'd doing primarily because i hate being judged short of my efforts. I can prove them wrong but then again i have to keep in mind that efforts charged by bitterness instantly bring out much worse emotions whether it be good or less good. hahaha!

to #s 6 and 7.. it has to be better luck for next time for us, shall we show them what we are made of? (sugar...spice and a lots of clean honest tricks in the bag) Goojab goojab! Let's do this!!!