Thanks to android i can go back to babbling im writting.




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its 14 o-clock



thank you hormones

good night!


Resisti all' amore e vivi Libero

Resisti all' amore.
Endure to Love

Endure both good and bad and work to be morally upright at all cost.

Love, after all, is a virtue which is strengthened by its resistance to vice.

Morality is subjective and when you commit 'to love' you commit not to bring forth hatred. The uprightness of love is misused and then we submit to the vice.

e Vivi Libero.
Be free to Live

Let no fear of judgement hold you back. When you wake up and know that your head is in the right place where your heart is leading you to be then you just have to get up on your ass and work it.

"Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose.
Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood."

"Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need.
This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life.
Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are."

Sail away G-Boat

Missed disconnection
Knowing means my thoughts linger, then life brings me luck because we felt simply divine.

The already tangled paths winds even more further I am gracious enough believing that it rather be out of site then we never have to end.

It would be nice to keep this fine line, this ember of hope, enduring the monster that life made of me.

You see the light. Even if darkness envelopes me. You see the light. Even if my soul has been exhausted and gagged that my mind detaches from my being.You see the light.

Dear God, I pray that you loop us right back. Just a break. A dose of luck.



I am struggling to wrap my head around how i am to move forward.

So to further shake up my life, my family now knows of my troubled marriage. And as expected, very different from the pep talk you get from friends and strangers, they gave me blow-by-blow of how STUPID i lived my life for the past 8 years of not saying a word about my endeavor.

I have been selfish and proud..and overly LAZY to pick myself up and fix things for myself.

I am amazed by how i projected calm and collected when i am, for 8 years, have been poisoning myself and slowly ebbing away to a false pretense of a woman of virtue. I tell myself.."for my kids", this drives me more now than ever to fix myself or else i will never do things right when i stay broken.

I prayed for wisdom, and now i pray for diligence to follow through and get this done. I pray that i be reminded when my drive falters and i become lazy to finish this.

My God is a very systematic one, and we communicate quite well. He is done giving me epiphanies, it my turn to come back to me.


switch me OFF!


Today you listened to me beyond my heart's desires.
You indeed know how to shake me, and that is to take away worldy attachments which includes my faith in friends and my business deals.


I shall push forth only with your wisdom. Put me in my right place, and please when you decide to throw another one of this my way, pwede po isa isa lang.


!ping me

what do you intend for me to grow up to with this senseless pain.. with this hopeless game.

i just want to understand.

i lift all the ambiguity to You. hold me together as i fight to love and live at the same time.