10.3.09

Life is an effed up equation.

Today i want to exploit some life equations.

We start with the variables:

A: represents your ultimate value (self-perceived of course)

B: represents someone else's total character --- let's keep it to the significant other's category --- of course how you perceive significance is another variable

C: perpetually changing circumstance ---- e.g. emotions, weather, your boss' press releases vs. his/her actions, hair color, etc.

D: Priorities/Commitments: To elaborate, acts or behaviors imposed upon by variable B that should be directly resulting to your E.

E: your (my) reality

Now that we have at least the basic variables to factor in, let's now look into how i am the worst person to be putting them into an equation. Let's get on in pointing out that:

1. No matter how constantly positive your A is, you'd end up with a negative value if you're a friggin push-over!!

2. If you let the good type of Bs surround you 24/7 you'd be too lazy and i bet dumb not to suspect that there's a catch.

3. Keeping it chummy with the most repulsive Bs will eventually give you some headstart and hopefully beat them to ever outsmarting you again... and maybe.. just maybe.. they;d go pick on someone else.

4. E is the heartbreaking value of a badly distorted A. Upon realizing of course that (hopefully not yet too late) A has morphed into B as a result of running away from not so pleasant Cs in order to live by your Ds.

5. If you married to/got together with/stayed for too long with someone with an A that's 2 dimensional... (yes not so flexible.. uh huh them retards..) you'd probably find drama (considering that you've already told them in person, emailed the details for them to get the chance to read back) as a not so efficient mode of communication.

This is like automatically taking out all intuitive types (e.g. sensitivity, empathy, regard for someone else) of emotions coz they wont work and it will just make things more confusing.

One of my theories for this anomaly is that 2D As have heightened Ds. So no matter how petty and stupid their Ds are, it is stil faaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrr more important than your drama.

If you know where or how i could get my brain a downgrade please let me know, my multi-dimensional A cannot understand how i could impact and probably be significant enough to change or share their/his Ds.

6. C can be easily manipulated with how you react to Bs. My advise... Dedma.. or at least pretend that you give a damn. Just enough to make em go back to their seats and shut the fuck up.
Time-out / Degree of attention (cross reference to your Ds of course)=B's significance to your E

7. Passive-aggressiveness is the sweetest way to put distorted Bs back to some level of congruence (congruence in relation to of course your Es).






This is word math overload. hope it still makes some sense to me tomorrow. Nosebleed.