bangkay .

Napatulala dala ng bumubulong na tula.
Pilit tumakas mula sa lumalakas na bigkas.
Hiyaw ng pag-ibig na pumanaw.
Hinagpis na pinilit matiis,
Pagkahinayang, naghanap ng lunas
sa hangin malamig kung humampas.
Namulat sa bawat pitik ng kidlat.
Sumusulyap sa gitna ng madilim na mga ulap.
Parusa sa isipang gustong magpahinga.
Piringan man ang mata muka mo'y nakapintura.
Kislap ng kidlat.. ako'y kukurap.
Sindak sa bawat pag gulong ng kulog.
Ininiintay ang pagbuhos ng ulan
ng agos ng luha ay maismulan.
Sa malamig na hamog akoy nababalot,
manhid sa lason ng puot.
Sakit ng pananabik
sa pagtila ng ulan manunumbalik.
Diwa ay lunod, sa hukay nakaluhod.
Panalangin na maunahan umiglip
bago ang araw magsumilip.

rutzie 5.29.07

my second composition in Filipino after mandarambong. one word.... NOSEBLEED!

brown frown

been moping how i need to trim down... i'm guessing i am 20% bigger than i was back october06.


now now... few weeks back i was starting to get positive and hyped that this needs just few minutes jogging and i dunno dancing...


but then... brown cloud came-a-hovering... taking away all hope.. now i end up binging like a hamster in protien bars.. going downhill really far from my goal... i need a miracle or a stronger drive to get my act together... (suggestions please...REALISTIC and INTERESTING ones please)



Taking in consideration how boring, for a lack of a better adjective, my life turned from February to date made the perfect environment for me to be this way.

get lost.dream on.

Segway: This is another rengga i did with my bessie ina. If i recall it correctly we we're so slumped by hoplessness generally brought by hmmm.... the thing they call love. If you want to join the rengga.... leave yer lines as a comment. Cheers!

i wish to get lost in my dreams. Where everything is true even if its not what it seems.

where everything is eternally happy and less shitty than the reality I have when awake.

I chase stars and leave them dead stealing their twinkle for my desires. The greed and dependence left me looking up to the skies.

I pity the skies now for they are all clear and dark. The way my heart was and still is even if I have captured all the star's light.

So i close my eyes to keep the last of the light in. until i drift away to my dreams where i pretend you're here my sorry happy thoughts that keeps me sane.

Where in my dream where I can find the you who can keep me happy, sane and loved. Where I can find the other you, a fragment of my demented mind.

Let me never wake, as my dreams are my only escape. Where it's dark and cold but I have your promises to hold where as when I awake deluded by the fancy light, a mockery to what could have been us.

Let me never leave this dark cold dream where I can feel your warm touch and see your promises become a reality. Let me never wake for I don't want to see harsh reality that my hands are cold and empty . To realize that all you've given me are empty promises.

RuthieIna
08 Mar 2007

How are you today?

For some reason it's like waiting for your death.





I am sooooo naive when it comes to adventure... which is pathetic because for the longest time i thought i had a dare-devil in me. I am all boring all of a sudden. Yey!





Let me regroup on that identity...





I'd ingest poison..


I'd smoke anything..


I'll NEVER pop... sorry dare me even.. i wont!


I'll drink anything...


I don't and will never sing with other people in teh same room.


I can dance.. in the dark.. with lights lights tigsk tigsk tigsk..


I can climb a mountain... wall.. stairs...


...Slide down any of them too.


I can go up to someone (only when intoxicated or in a place where i know i'll not revisit within the same).


I can lie.. i lie a lot to save my ass and people's ass..


I can stare death straight in the eye (back when i did not have andrea)..well figuratively speaking... i had faith and was so open to dying whenever.





To do list:


Taunt vicious creatures (e.g. fuzzy weeetel wabbitz and hamstersssssss) then kill em if they become too weird.


Bungeee jump. Dive.


Live with strangers.


Quit my job.


kill bad evil people (e.i. parents of street children, greedy evil politicians, motorbike people and ruthless pedestrians, brown cops)


Commission homosexuals to rape dead beat men who discriminate women.


legalize it.


turn money into the most useless thing on earth.


pay debts by good will to others.





Right now. Thought of travelling ain't really as exciting. Primarily because I don't want to be away from Andrea and hmm... just that.





Things change. Catch you next week.

Escape to a dream. Can't wait to fly.

pislabenrakenrol

its what we gots......

The Bottom Line
Have faith that the worst is behind you, because it is. The future is very bright.

In Detail
Being forgetful can sometimes be a blessing -- remember that the next time you're in a rush and you can't find your house keys or sunglasses. The same brain that makes you forget where you put something also lets you forget about hurtful episodes from your life -- eventually. The pain or sorrow you've felt recently is fading slowly, but it's fading surely. Have faith that the worst is behind you, because it is. Keep moving forward, and leave the past behind.


hahaha beats bein a fish brain... this forcast is so emo.. killed the whole idea of being joyfully forgetful. seeesh!